This year, I turned 40 in January and didn't think much about it. However, as the year has gone on, I've felt like a 13-year-old who just wants to be left alone. What used to work for me in terms of getting opportunities has stopped. I asked myself, "What the hell is going on?" So, I did what I usually do and did some research. I found out I was having a mid-life crisis (MLC).
A lot of MLC people go through changes that are often misunderstood and can cause them to make big decisions that can turn out to be bad.
Change-hunger and the feeling that "the grass is greener" can make some people really shake up the boat and maybe lose a few shipmates along the way. Even the little ones.
So, MLC passengers sometimes want change, even if it might not be in their best interests and may not be in their budget.
The problem is that there are many ways to make changes. Black and white, there's good and bad, yin and yang, good and bad, and even doing nothing and doing something. "In the larger consciousness of Universal Law, all is in action with or without your permission."
I can only say that my MLC has led me to a place that I think is the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life.
Do I fight against the changes because they are hard and cause me a lot of pain? Or do I accept the challenge, which is really "ONLY WHAT I THINK," which will be painful and uncomfortable?
I'm willing to take on the challenges, and yes, they all help me grow and change into a more "authentic me."
MLC gives the passenger the chance to realise their deepest, most important dreams and take steps toward getting them. Answer the age-old questions, "What am I doing here?" and "What is my true purpose here in the (mysterious) years I have to live on earth?"
It's fine to tell people about this discovery, but sometimes I'd rather run away and backpack around the world instead.
I can't make changes happen from the outside; they have to come from inside me. Then I'm just running away from the truth and the MLC's gift.
I've had to change a few things to deal with the feeling of inner anxiety and restlessness that never goes away.
I hired a personal trainer and promised to work out to live a longer, healthier life.
I hired a Life and Business Coach.
I've stopped being afraid of not having enough money so I can focus on what I really want to do in the next-to-last part of my life.
I've become more interested in my 8-year-old son's personal growth and looked into what he needs from me.
I've started to think about the things I've been taught to believe and asked myself, "What do I want to believe?"
When I feel like running away, I try especially hard to remember that this unpleasant time will pass and that I will be rewarded for my hard work.
I'm learning not to worry about the little things.
I've given up on my family, who have always made fun of me and never liked me for who I am. (In other words, enough is enough, I don't need anyone in my life who pushes my buttons and makes me feel bad.) This was a big deal, but I now feel a freedom I've never felt before, which I'll talk about in MLC Part 2.
Knowing that this phase will last about 5 years, I try to accept it and learn to let go. I've been a control freak my whole life, so this is hard for me.
- I love and take care of myself.
I'm picky about the people I hang out with, because I have a choice.
If you're on this journey with me, you were born in the 1960s, and the values of that time are a part of you. But something changed. The 1970s and 1980s were so different from our values that I felt like I was born in the wrong time. I'm not from the "ME Generation." I'm an early Indigo child with the idealistic mantra "Love and Peace for all mankind."
No matter if you believe in astrology or not, someone I know and love can tell you how the planets affect our whole inner and outer systems. When we know what our challenges and cycles are as they are happening, and when we know a little bit about what will happen in the future, astrology gives us confirmation and a sense of safety about the lessons to be learned and the good things that will happen because of them.
Resistance to growth is what kills and makes things hurt.
Still, it's worse to be CONFUSED, to have two minds, and to be unstable in every way.
MLC (Mid Life Crisis) Without the knowledge I've gained from, yes, astrology, I can only say that it was confusing from my own point of view.
My proof has been seeing how people in their 40s and 50s deal with their lives.
There is a lot on the Internet that can help you with your MLC and maybe make you feel better about what the hell is going on here.
By the way, there are some lucky people who go through these years without being affected by an MLC. Sometimes I envy them, but I also wonder if they are out of touch or trying to escape by making big changes outside of themselves to justify their selfish actions.
